procrastination is the thief of time...

...unfortunately, me owns the greatest thief of time ever.

wat.

i'm going to postpone my birthday entry until God knows when. till then, this.

"When you dream, there are no rules. People can fly, anything can happen"

Astral Projection in People Can Fly

On Sunday, I dreamt of getting all lovey-dovey with a guy friend.

The next night, Gambit Saifullah was my cousin.

Then, I found myself getting ready for Otago interview.

Yesterday, a visit to yet another wonderland.

This afternoon, almost bought Angelic Pretty.

I bet tonight, I'll have Raphael in my arms. Or maybe even Faizal Tahir. I had him twice before, so it's not impossible :D

Dear God, please let this holiday be everlasting. My 19-year-old body is too tired for AUSMAT (hahahahahahahahahahahahahaha!!!).

For the record, I slept for 12 hours straight on Sunday. Talk about qada' tidur.

bibliophile me?

Okay, I admit. My love towards classic literature is a newfound love - started almost immediately after I discovered lifestyle lolita (like, reading Bram Stoker is sooo Elegant Gothic Aristocrat, and reading Jane Austen is sooo Classic Lolita). But I always love books, really, even though I started with cheesy Disney Princesses back when I was four. I always think that reading Michael Crichton during a boring Monday assembly will make you appear way cooler than your peers with their Alaf 21 romantic novels (pardon me, I have to mention XD).

But of course, I don't read books for the sake of being a lifestyle lolita, or for its 'cool factor', or even to 'improve my vocabulary and my sentence structure' or any other nerdy reasons you may fancy. I just love reading. It's the best thing since Dance Dance Paradise (mwahahahaha).

And for that, I need more books. Mine is a pathetic collection (pathetic in terms of quantity, not quality). I even have fricken Twilight Saga in my collection - all four of them (I felt grateful to fall out of love with Twilight before I manage to buy the Official and Unofficial Guide, Twilight Men/Women, Robert Pattinson biographies, those Twilight Saga Diaries in a Tin, Team Edward/Team Jacob T-shirts/mugs/bedsheets, Midnight Sun, Senjakala, Cinta Baru, etc.). Most of my books fall under the vampire romance category - and by 'vampire romance' I mean Christine Feehan-type vampire romance, not those teenage vampire flicks like Vampire Kisses or whatever.

And, ehehe, since I'm so fond of wishlists, I present you:

Alice's Ultimate Bibliophile Wishlist

1. Through The Looking Glass (hardcover) by Lewis Carroll. Of course I have read this, but I need the hardcover version to express my undying love to Lewis Carroll :x
2. The Secret Garden by Frances Hodgson Burnett. Because tales of little girls from the Edwardian period are so lolita :D
3. A Little Princess (hardcover) by Frances Hodgson Burnett. It reduced me to tears, so I NEED IT. NAO. MY BIRTHDAY.
4. Emma by Jane Austen. Collector's item.
5. Sense and Sensibility by Jane Austen. Again, collector's item.
6. Pride and Prejudice by Jane Austen. Uh. :D
7. Wuthering Heights by Emily Bronte. Preferably that one with the freaky cover design I saw at Borders some time ago :D
8. Anything from Edgar Allan Poe. However, if you give me The Black Cat, I swear I'll tear you apart (me is an animal lover. The Black Cat itu melampau. Kesian kucing tu.)
9. Hans Christian Andersen's Fairy Tales. Because I can.
10. The Little Prince by Antoine de Saint-Exupery. I think it's interesting :D
11. Frankenstein (hardcover) by Mary Shelley. As an aspiring Elegant Gothic Lolita/Aristocrat, I am a big fan of Gothic literature.
12. The Phantom of the Opera by Gaston Leroux. Oh the Gothic romance... oh my lovely Erik...nuff said.
13. The Picture of Dorian Gray by Oscar Wilde. Yes, I have a copy, but not the one with Ben Barnes on the cover XD
14. Jane Eyre by Charlotte Bronte. I love the Bronte sisters~
15. Lolita by Vladimir Nabokov. While it may not be my kind of lolita, I think Nabokov's style is exquisite, and therefore deserves to be in my collection :D
16. The Age of Innocence by Edith Wharton. You see, I live in the Victorian era.
17. Pirate Latitude by Michael Crichton. Hahaha, not classic literature, but I adore the late Michael Crichton. I have The Andromeda Strain, Prey, State of Fear and Next, but not this. And the fact that its manuscript was found after Crichton's death makes it extremely valuable XD
18. Nightlight by the Harvard Lampoon. Aku suka gelakkan Twilight. The Harvard Lampoon makes the best parodies ever (read Bored of the Rings!). Belle Goose and Edwart Mullen FTW
19. The Count of Monte Cristo by Alexandre Dumas. Love the book, love Dumas, love the anime, love guys with the title Count (as in Count Raphael Edward Adams tee-hee XD)
20. The Scarlet Letter by Nathaniel Hawthorne. Really, I've read the manga version, and I was hooked since then.
21. Life of Pi by Yann Martel. I need to own it. Reading the borrowed copy from the library is not enough.
22. Interview with the Vampire by Anne Rice. Borrowing from Leana doesn't count XD
23. Angels and Demons by Dan Brown. IDK, somehow this whole Illuminati thingie sparked my interest.

of course there will be more, and of course I'll update later, but for the time being, these are my wishlist for my birthday (ni wishlist buku jek, wishlist penuh kat sini)

Happy Shopping! XD

Alice

NOTHING

"I have 14 (plus one. accident lah.) scars. Each one of them reflects the despairing events that I have endured in my whole life. I shall bring them to the day of my demise to remind myself how life could sometimes be cruel, and how one could actually stand up and live a more beautiful one"

Indirectly, I blame my paternal relatives for my scars.

(Directly, it will always be Subconscious :\ )

And kids, scars are not worth it. People will ask. Your spouse will ask. Your mom will ask, with teary eyes and suicide threats.

God will ask. It's not yours for you to damage it.

Better go and cut an apple. Coz an apple a day heals scars away (nasihat pharmacist terpesong).

And should you run out of naturally-occuring serotonin, buy Choki-Choki. Satu peket singgit, effect same cam makan Cadbury, 5 tubes are enough for one week.

Don't ask. I'm making a research on SI.

why

1. i wonder why i always make people around me disappointed/upset with me.
2. i wonder why my close relationships with people will not last longer than a month.
3. i wonder why am i unbearably paranoid.
4. i wonder why i make a fuss about minor things like this.
5. i wonder why the f*ck am i writing this.

i wonder why, too.

AUSTRALIAN OPEN WTF

So Rafa withdrew. He's still got that old knee injury, and the injury has taken its toll on him. For God's sake, he could've won against Murray if not for the injury! T_T Though people may argue that Murray was already winning before Rafa's knee ruined everything, I still think that Rafa could beat him. Like the previous match against Ivo Karlovic - he started with a very humble game before emerging as the winner. I was following today's game while waiting for INTEC bus to depart, and I hoped as heck that he would rise again from the first set defeat. But when you have knee tendonitis that forced you to withdraw from last year's Wimbledon, chances are that knee tendonitis will yet again be the reason of your - not to forget your dearest fans' - despair.

But seriously, I think that it's better to withdraw than spending your entire ruined tennis career with a crippled knee. I definitely do not want to see Rafa in that condition. So let him have a very good rest, and someday he'll rise again twice as better (uh, think I've said this during last year's Wimbledon, but hey who knows what luck/fate has in store for all of us right?). Anyhoo, I will always be there to suport him. Vamos Rafael!

Btw, think it's going to be Murray or Roddick against Federer for the finals. Yet another reason for Leana's joy, I think. Nobody could beat Fed-Ex other than dearest Rafa for sure. And since Rafa is out, he's gonna win Aussie Open lah I think. (though deep in my heart I still hope that Davydenko would be able to kick his S tomorrow, but think that's unlikely, eh? So let's just hope for Djokovic, or even Murray I don't care as long as Federer kalah!!!!!!!)

AUSTRALIAN OPEN FTW!!

We all love Grand Slams. Especially this one (my personal fave was French Open, but, uh.). Somehow, it's ironic that I hate every kinds of sport (coz I lack talent in any of them. Srsly man, galah panjang pun aku tak lepas.) but when it comes to tennis, I'll go gaga all over *hits a distorted rendition of 'Bad Romance'*. Well of course, everyone know the reason why.

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RAFAEL NADAL!!!!

Last year, he reduced Federer to tears at the very arena (though Fed-Ex seemed to launch some kind of revenge plot on him later that year). This year, he seemed to have a very good start (beat Ivo Karlovic earlier today, pas ni jumpe Murray *curse Murray*) and I hope that he'll win Aussie Open again!

Btw, at this very moment I wish I have all the luck in the world to be able to hitchhike Leana's ride to Aussie so that I can watch my man Rafa reduce Federer to tears again!! GAHHHHH!!!!

LEANA, NOT FAIR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

papehal pun, VAMOS RAFA!!!! \(^O^)/