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Emo girl: Music is my life, I can't live without music.

Me: What kind of music? The one that tells you to slit your wrist because your life sucks? I believe it's "I can't live with music", honey :)

appropriate professions in the scientific field for Goa trance headz like me part 1

That's a mouthful ya

(of course this is not Goa, but it's scientific enough so yeah)

So yeah. You love Goa trance even before the emergence of the first full moon festival, and your knowledge regarding this particular style of trance would shame Goa Gil himself. You are the Goa version of a quaintrelle, so it's only natural that you take up a job related to Goa trance, innit? Problem is, you are the heir to a legacy of Einsteins, and you are so not going to end up being an underground DJ/producer, spinning and making records that people have stopped listening to since the 2000's (okay, there are people who still listen to Goa trance, but by the turn of the century people have become too preoccupied with psy already, so who cares about Goa anymore?). So what are you going to do then? Study about Goa related stuffs, of course! Here are some professions which you might want to consider.

Mycologist

Let's face it, us Goa headz love our mushrooms. Especially those under the genus psilocybe. We eat them, process them, even make tea out of them. To us, mushrooms are the most sacred God's creation (after Salvia divinorum perhaps), and therefore should be valued and cherished with all our heart. What better way to value the wonders of mushrooms than by studying about them deeply?

Pharmacognosist

Okay, I know I can just say pharmacologist, but that's not accurate enough yaww. Pharmacognosist is, well, an expert in pharmacognosy, which is basically the study of natural remedies, or the study of how mundane plants can become useful medicines and cure any kinds of maladies. Since we Goa headz are so hippie we don't believe in carcinogen-laden modern medicines, being a pharmacognosist is crucial for the Goa headz population to ensure that we can stay healthy without polluting ourselves with man-made poisons (in this context, please conveniently ignore LSD).

Oneirologist

Please do count the number of Goa trance/ psybient songs having references on dreams, be it lucid or vivid or whatever. Too many to count, right? Dream is, after all, an integral element of the Goa biosphere, since the nature of dreams itself is highly mystical. I mean, where else can you find yourself flying without wings, confidently naked while surfing across what seemed to be a highly altered version of your childhood hometown accompanied by various sorts of distorted beings? Salviatrip, perhaps, but that doesn't count. A career as an expert in the scientific study of dreams helps you to uncover the mysteries behind what happens when one slips into an REM state. And nothing is more Goa than uncovering the mysteries behind that one. You can also study about the very mystical lucid dreaming, and astral projection for that matter. Oh, speaking of astral projection...

Astral Projectionologist/ OOBEologist

Okay, I made this one up. But one can always start.

Cosmologist

You see, the study of the Universe has been fascinating us Goa headz from the start. You'll find these cosmic elements in abundance in Goa trance, from the samples taken from films like 2001 A Space Odyssey, Star Trek, Star Wars and Dune, to the 'deep space noises' drones and synths (e.g. Zero by Astral Projection) and the cosmic-sounding outfit names and song titles (e.g. Space Tribe and Dancing Galaxy respectively). Maybe it has got to do with the whole Hindu mythology of which Goa headz are very fond of (it is, after all, Goa trance). You ask me why cosmology? Well, you can always take astrophysics or astronomy, or if you are very inclined, exoplanetology, but none of them is as mystical as cosmology, and you can never be Goa enough unless you are immersed in something highly mystical innit?

Psychopharmacologist

Because Rick Strassman is one. Studying about DMT and other psychoactive substances is so much fun, really. By being a psychopharmacologist, you can deepen your understandings on how those drugs work on your body to distort your conscious perceptions. Uh, no really. You actually focus more on what happens when one takes them psychoactive drugs, taking note on any changes in behaviour, mood, thinking, those stuffs (Wiki 2010). In short, you observe people babbling about "meeting highly intelligent creatures, telling me all the secrets of the world, seeing the past, present and the future all blended into one, feeling an overwhelming sense of love, peace, knowledge and tranquility...". Now that must be fun.

Plus point, you can always get a free dose of DMT (or two) any given time, "for the benefits of humanity".

So there you go. Plenty of options already. Who says you have to give up your future to live a very Goa life? And who says you have to give up your passion to have a secure future? You can indeed get the best of both worlds!

Happy studying and Boom!

Alice

astronomy is awesome

Firstly, I don't want to have any romantic relationship with any guy (at least for the time being), especially if that guy is not Raphael (or at least Raphael-like). Having said that, don't expect me to be too friendly to you guys whatsoever. No offline communications, no "let's go out together!!!1!!1!!!!!", no direct contacts. Been there done that. Nak keluar sama mesti belanja. All expenses paid. Tambang pun taja sekali. Aku tak kira. Kau nak label aku materialistik ke hape ke silakan. If you can't sacrifice for me now, I cannot justify being your wife in the future. Nuff said.

Secondly, I love full moon. I really do. Full moon rising is the best natural phenomenon ever (besides the usual eclipses). If you are lucky enough, go to any place where you can almost see the horizon without any obstructions during a full moon night, preferably around Maghrib. You will see a beautiful orange full moon . (I rarely have a chance to witness this event because kat depan bilik banyak pokok and bangunan and whatnots makanya sangat sedih).

Thirdly, I'm sorry if I offended you. Apparently I have this 'enhanced' interpretation skills that leads me to misinterpret many an innocent status updates/ blog posts. The blame should be put entirely on me.

Fourthly (that sounds odd), I want macarons. I want I want I want I don't care I really want some macarons!!!11!11!!!!

Rose and pistachio and caramel and cherry with Nutella (I can go on forever with the list of 'freaky' flavours) is teh awesomest.

Fifthly, you can see Jupiter clearly right now. Look at the moon, and find the nearest bright object that doesn't twinkle. That's Jupiter. I want me a telescope, that would be awesome.

Yes, misleading title is misleading :D

midnight randomization part deux

Aku tak berapa kisah kalau kau nak kacau aku pun. You could say I like it. Sebab aku rasa kau menarik. Dan aku suka orang-orang menarik. Orang normal sangat boring. Ya, aku label kau dan aku sebagai tak normal. Tapi itu patut jadi satu compliment. But I don't know. Some people get offended by this, tapi aku trust kau bukan jenis yang cepat offended.

By the way, yes, I love dance music. Been hearing it since I was 4. It's only natural. Sayangnya tak ramai orang di Malaysia tahu pasal dance music. Kalau ada yang tahu/suka tu pun daripada exposure lepas pergi ke kelab-kelab posh e.g. Zouk (kelab tak posh tak pasang dance music, diorang pasang lagu dangdut); suka sebab dance music mempercepatkan heartbeat dan mempercepatkan proses high. Bukan suka sebab dance music itu sendiri. Takpun exposure lepas lepak-lepak di Bukit Bintang dan berkawan dengan budak-budak shufflers yang menari mengikuti rentak hardstyle. Mereka cuma tahu itu hardstyle, dan letak di t-shirt masing-masing; mereka tak tahu itu ialah sub-style hard dance, dan "hardstyle" yang mereka gelarkan itu boleh jadi hard trance ataupun cuma bangin' techno. Lalu dengan knowledge yang sikit ini mereka cuba buat tracks sendiri; maka keluarlah lagu seperti Roti Keju yang sangat out of place.

Mereka yang menghayati dance music sangat sedikit, apatah lagi menghayati psychedelic trance. Epic Tribe sangat awesome, mereka ada soul Goa sebenar (sans LSD). But that doesn't mean all of the punters that attend their events have that true psychedelic spirit. Kalau orang berhenti associate dance music dengan clubbing dan dadah, dunia ini akan jadi lebih indah. Dan kalau industri muzik indie di Malaysia juga memaparkan artis dance music alongside the usual alt rock bands, dunia ini sudah tentu akan jadi lebih awesome.

Entry ini pelik sebab aku terbaca blog lama di Friendster yang ditulis masa umur 13, komen-komen pasal local dance music scene. Waktu aku umur 11 dulu, dance music di radio tempatan sangat awesome. Sekarang sudah mati. Terima kasih mainstream music kerana contribute serba sedikit ke arah itu.

Midnight randomization part deux kerana kalau kau perasan, entry ini ada kena-mengena dengan midnight randomization yang pertama, bab 'exposure' tu. Hint from the writing style of this entry. Mari layan Moguai yang tidak sama dengan Mogwai (aku baru perasan).

Alice yang bakal hadapi interview lagi sebelum cuti.

midnight randomization

You grow up having no particular interest in life whatsoever, then you meet a couple of queer individuals - later in life you realize they are the only set of individuals you could ever get along with - and started absorbing whatever they are, assimilating them to be a distinct personality that is you. The way they talk. The way they dress. What kind of music they listen to. Their current obsessions. Their philosophy in life.

Because that is what we are. We mold ourselves to be what we are today from the little things we are exposed to in life. One does not abruptly develop a taste for Aphex Twin without being introduced to it via one's brother's DJ friend, or via the loud industrial festival one attended last year (I must include Aphex Twin analogies coz he is fcking insanely awesome). In the end, a person is a being formed by numerous aspects acquired from his surrounding world; those that are carefully selected and skillfully crafted to be what one may call as the personality, or the personal characteristics. One may choose not to be affected by anything that happens around him, but sooner or later, the effect will start to surface.

Song of the entry is Bluetech's Triangle because psybient is food for the soul (acquired via the exposure to Shpongle, which was acquired from an old DJmag magazine, which was bought by my awesome dad. Dad knows dance music more than I do).

we all need a dose of DMT once in a while (it's in your body btw)

Psychedelic ambient combines the two most awesome things on Earth IMO; psychedelic trance and ambient.

According to this logic, Shpongle is the most double epic awesome thing on Earth.

No one can play flute better than Raja Ram. Period.

ETA: apparently I'm a noob in HTML codes. Damn.

welcome to the wonderful world of hallucinogens

I do not take hallucinogenics in any way, of course. I love my brain cells too much to do that. But as an experienced Goa trancer, I cannot help myself from involving in all things psychedelic. Personally I think hallucinogenics are awesome; they make you feel detached from the real world. I am not trying to advocate the usage of drugs (but as an aspiring pharmacist I would be more than happy to encourage the usage of medicinal drugs among all of you - it's better than taking unregistered traditional medications laced with hydroquinone isn't it?), but I really do think that the spiritual experience of seeing (or hearing) unreal things are exciting. Especially when it comes in Technicolour. With all 16 million colours included.

Frankly, whenever I listen to Goa trance, I could almost feel the synthesis of DMT going on in my head, giving me an unexplainable rush (not as intense as LSD, but still). The deep basslines are intoxicating, the surreal composition of melodic synths are entrancing, the mystical Indian chants are pure bliss. I could relate to those Indian chants by the way, so I bet it's no wonder why I prefer old-skool Goa trance from Destination Goa than the current stuffs people are making out of Fruity Loops. It's a good thing that Goa trance is gaining recognition in Malaysia though, thanks to the awesome people from Epic Tribe. Though I will never be able to attend one of those mystical psy events they organise, it's nice to think that I'm not the only one knowing about Goa trance in this very country, where most teenagers are heavily drugged with sex-laced songs from the likes of Gaga, Ke$ha, or any one of those pimptastic hip-hop artistes singing about taking off knickers, wanting to 'do it again and again', getting laid and...well, it's basically about getting laid.

I realised I have no topic sentence and proper flow of ideas. Haha. If you have to ask, I am in no mood whatsoever to complete my vital essays, hence this fcking nonsense I'm writing. I am also WUI; writing under influence. It's my personal psychedelic drug, the good ol' caffeine. Current pulse rate is 120 at rest, and could escalate higher. I admire people who could write things that I could never understand, with high English and whatnots, whereas I'm stuck with my colloquial mangled English here, all the while knowing the fact that I could not afford to have this style of writing. See how much I am detached from the real world by taking caffeine? Yeah, I drank half a glass of Ipoh White Coffee earlier today; it's this adverse effect I got after my caffeine OD 4 years ago, causing me to be extra agitated after consuming even the teeniest amount of that dreaded chemical. If you must get attention by self-harming, do anything but poison yourself. Scars can heal, but the effects of chemicals can linger for a very long time. I just have to say this. People don't tell about their imbecile experiences doing SI online without being anonymous, but I'm doing this for the sake of preventing more people from doing so. Being sober makes you feel important. Hoyeah.

Way to go Otago. Way to go pharmacy. Oh, give me some litmus paper already. I can't sleep.

procrastination is the thief of time...

...unfortunately, me owns the greatest thief of time ever.

wat.

i love Melty Chocolate <3

sempena Loliday...

blackrose_weirdo

Random Freaky Things You Should Know About The Blogger

1.Thinks that all inanimate objects have feelings, especially electrical appliances. Why else do you think they broke down?

2. Will not talk to strangers, but will be more than happy to greet all cats/dogs/birds/iguanas on the street

3. Never spends more than RM50 on a single item when shopping, unless if it's meant to be priced above RM50 (e.g. baju raya)

4. Will not text/ym/skype/fb anybody on her friends list first unless if it's really important, or unless if she's crushing on that person

5. Has a laptop named Kikirara Shoten, or Kiki, which she regarded as her own younger sister

6. Talks to herself when going out alone, commenting on the price of things, the hideous design of the clothes on sale, complaining why people stare at her, etc...

7.Is willing to survey all shops on the shopping complex before making her final decision on which thing to buy

8. Despite that fact, she's still a compulsive buyer

9. Finds geeks/nerds as interesting. Hence Sheikh Mohamad Faisal whatever.

10. Is fascinated with the way people who make hideous clothes think

11. Is fascinated with the way people who make embarrassingly awkward TV commercials (Balang Kuih Are Wanted Rose/Minyak Kelapa Dara Bio-Asli/ Minyak Angin TYT/Coco Pie) think

12. Is quarter-deaf. Has difficulty in understanding spoken words

13. In spite of that, she could listen to indirect conversations/gossips without any problem

14. Has black-and-white syndrome. A person with this condition views that only black and white items stand out from the rest

15. Started composing songs at the age of 10. Started performing her own songs at the age of 12, during her primary school's Majlis Penyampaian Hadiah something

16. Finds herself attracted towards emo guys/girls and cutters

17. Hates guys who approach girls by making catcalls/ using lines such as "Hai awak, sorang je ke?", "Awak, awak ni cute la", "Hai awak, boleh saye teman?", "Hai, sape name?Leh mintak no tepon?" etc

18. Because of that, she wishes for all guys to have nineteenth century manners/ immense gallantry

19. Wears a sour and unfriendly face when going out alone to avoid said catcalls

20. Injuries, including cutting injuries, actually give her goosebumps

21. Loves pale lips looks, achieved by putting a small amount of foundation on the lips

22. Never missed voting on DJmag's Top 100 DJs Poll since 2004

23. Never missed voting for Paul van Dyk on the said poll since 2004

24. Loved Backstreet Boys at the age of 8, and Linkin Park at the age of 10

25. Has a collection of Baskin-Robbins spoons and Secret Recipe receipts

26. Has a total of 26 fangirling obsessions

27. Will not like the most popular character in a movie/book/manga. Example Robert Pattinson/Edward Cullen

28.Secretly believes that Raphael Adams exists

29. Is very interested in traditional Malay music/arts

30. Puts a sachet of rose fragrance under her pillows. Try it - it makes your hair smells real good

31. Loves to comment/criticize while watching Malay movies/teledrama

32. Finds sadomasochism highly interesting >:P

33. Despite loving psychedelic trance to death, most of her composed songs are ambient/house music

34. Judges guys by their names. Loves guys with angelic names (Raphael, Raziel, Mikhail, Gabriel, Ariel, Nathaniel)

35. Is a part of the minority most of the time, except when it comes to buying shoes every 3 months

36. Comes up with new theories every week (known as Fatimah's Theory)

37. Strongly believes in modern medicine (hence pharmacy) but finds it bothersome to take medicine

38. Changes her trademark regularly. At one time it's Sekian Harap Maklum, and now it's alrighty

feel free to add anything that I've missed here