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Jayne: I JUST SO LOVE MR. DEPP/SWEENEY TODD/BENJAMIN BARKER!!! Wait, is that considered as incest???

Jamie: I LOVE HIM TOO! We love to play peek-a-boo!

Jamie: I could do better Edward Sparkullen than Rob Pat!.....

Jamie: ...but instead, I got only two lines. TWO FRICKIN LINES!!!

oh, for the record, I'm starting my 2nd sem. Yay for panic attacks!

WTF

Ah... Year 12. It's when most AUSMATians lose a big part of their sanity. I can't wait.

Hectic schedule, assignments, exams/tests/quizzes every forthnight if we're lucky (every week if we're not). Goodbye carefree life during Year 11, we're gonna miss you.

And great, just great. I'm in the group Illawong next year. IL-LA-WONG. Some small town or whatever in New South Wales. Some people got group names from anime (Kirra. Okay kidding, it's another small town in Australia) and I got Illawong. Awesome.

AND contrary to popular belief, me and Leana won't be in da same class again. Bie, which I hoped as heck she would be my classmate next year, will also not be in da said Illawong group/class. Which means I need to find myself a new set of kamceng friends, if I ever find any. And that sucks real bad. You see, I'm not good at starting new friendship due to my, ugh, quiet nature and my reluctance to fit into existing cliques/posse. Whatever.

But prolly, I could live with that. I dunno. At least I won't be in da same class as _________. Don't start guessing guys. You'll be dissapointed.

aku mau jual kasut

jenama: Gucci...ehh, Be Me (xtaw jenama ape ntah tu, tp kualiti bagus)

size: 38/saiz 7, tp disebabkan die peep toe, kasut ni lbey bsar dr size yg tertulis. org saiz 8 or 9 sesuai pakai

kaler: itam. itam solid. kalo pakai sexy XD

tinggi: 4 inci. selesa dipakai walaupun tinggi

baru pakai 2 kali. tu pun xsampai 30 minit each.

reason nak jual: besar sangat for my feet. tyme try ok pulak. ntahla

didatangkan bersama kotak n tumit extra, kalau2 rosak leh ganti

kalo nak, gimme ur best price :D

konfemkan dulu, nnti aku gtaw step2 berikutnya

bayar secara bank-in, aku xde Paypal. sesape ade kad kredit simpan je lah yek.

aku juga seorang akak...walaupun akak yang quite tak gune

Frankly speaking, I dun have much talent to be a big sis. Most of the time I would act as if I am the youngest child in my family, with my selfishness and my tendency to get easily irritated. In our family portrait, I even looked like an effin middle child, coz a 15-year-old teenage boy grows up so fast, there's no way his 18-year-old sis could catch up. I have stopped giving priority to my bros (e.g. "Ko habiskanlah, akak xmo lagi") coz for some unknown reasons, I am becoming more and more greedy/selfish/childish (?). I dunno. Man, I dunno.

Ever since I was, ugh, five or something, I have always wanted to have a big bro. I figured out that it would be great to have an older male sibling to take care of me (big bros always/most of the time/sometimes do *circle the word best describe yours*). When you have a big bro, the number of your encounters with bastards/perverts/sex offenders will be significantly reduced. Most probably, your freedom will be slightly reduced as well, but that's a small price to pay in order to get greater benefits. And ever since I was 4 (before the birth of my bro) I have always wanted to have a younger sis.Then we could play girly games together, mess with mum's makeup together, talk about boyfriends and love and puberty *tsk* together, and (later in life) share our interest in lolita together. Yeah, that could be very interesting.

But God gave me two younger bros. One is now 15, another is 10.

I am not trying to sound negative, really. Despite not being able to have my desired set of siblings, I am contented with my current one. I think they are cool. They have great talents. One is an aspiring mangaka, the other an aspiring guitarist. As usual, younger bros can be quite annoying, but I do believe that I have my contribution in that. I mean, 'annoying' could be an exaggeration, since I myself am easily annoyed and terrible in anger management. Whatever.

Since our family is a freekingly awkward family which doesn't believe in friendly verbal/written conversations or obvious gestures of affection, we hardly talked to each other (me and them, they and me. I'm alienated, coz I'm a girl, and mum said incest cases are rising). Despite sharing the same interests (Visual Kei, manga/anime, music, the arts, games), we hardly go beyond exchanging mp3s/softwares/occasional VK infos. And most of the time it's through Facebook. (It's the only place where we can freely interact as siblings). Told you our family is freekingly awkward. And most of the time, my verbal interactions with them involve me ordering them to do miscellaneous stuffs related to mum's kuih business ("Kopek kentang 4 kilo!" "Gi wat ikan bilis!" "Wei, kemasla tu!" "Pegi antar kuih! Pastu balik! Wei, dengar tak ni?"). As you can see, most of the time I'm being harsh towards them. Anger management wtf.

But who said I don't feel guilty about that? I do, and I hope I can be a better sis. But what the hell, years of being a member of the Freekingly Awkward Family, as well as my massive ego, refrained me from saying sorry face-to-face. So instead, I'm writing it on my blog.

Adik-adik, akak mintak maaf. Nanti akak belanje Pizza Hut.

*Pizza Hut is always a winner, btw*

To my bros, I'm at risk of sounding awkward and/or tacky, but I'm going to say it anyway. Faez, xkisahla dpt brape pn 4 ur PMR, PMR tu PMR, it's just a pathway, SPM tu yg penting. And oh, Happy Birthday, again. Hakim, sorry akak slalu marah2. Akak mmg camtu. Tp ubahla kalo xnak akak marah2 lg. Tolong mak, sian die. Thanks sebab slalu tolong. Dah2, ni dah terlebih tacky nih. I must stop.

MELTY CHOCOLATE CRAZE!! nyaaaaaa XD

Hi. By this time I figured out that you guys know about my obsession on Angelic Pretty's Melty Chocolate collection

And now, to add petrol to the rage (of not getting myself a Melty Chocolate JSK), we now have Melty Chocolate phone!

The brown phone (Melty Bitter) will look aboslutely stunning with the mint x brown Melty Chocolate, while the pink phone (Melty Strawberry) is perfect with the pink x brown one, don't you think?

*puppy eyes* I want both phone and AP Melty Chocolate, pleeeeese :D

(off topic) By the way, talking about chocolates, I need Ferrero Raffaello. Can't find it anywhere in Malaysia now, though.

salam maal hijrah :)

Happy New Year! New Year ini, for us Muslims, lebih special drpd new year yg lagi satu uh. Patotnyelah. Tp cm bese yg sebaliknye berlaku. Dh akhir zaman le katekan. Semoga tahun baru ni membolehkan kite berhijrah daripada yang buruk kepada yang baik, daripada yang baik kepada yang lebih baik, daripada yang beruk kepada yang cimpanzi (evolution kiasan tu...kalo xleh jdk baik trus, at least jdkla better di kalangan yg buruk). Sape yang berazam tu, good luck yek. Sape yang tak berazam tu, good luck membuat azam. (Tahun ni aku berazam nak jadik lebih organised. egh, cam taun2 lepas jek?)

Semoga diri anda sumer dilimpahi keberkatan oleh Allah :)

Prince

And I will gladly wait for my Raphael. I won't stop dreaming! XD

i made a surgery on an OP... without the help of machines...

I got this lovely dress from Nemo (thanks a lot Mo!)

but as much as I love it, I couldn't help but noticing that it's too ita (raschel lace bebeh...)

so I tried to fix it for Anime Hanabi, but I didn't manage to finish it on time.

Note to lolita newbies/friends of lolitas: Raschel lace makes you ita.

I know I can do something about the lace - it's the only thing ita about the dress since the basic design is definitely lolita. So, to save Nemo's dress I went and rip off all 8 metres of raschel lace, and went to Angsana to buy black eyelet lace and fabric for ruffles.

After a week of sewing (hand-stitching to be precise), this is the end result:

Ze eyelet lace. ^^ I love them

What I did to the sleeves. I actually wanted to do a bit more, but I was in a hurry for yesterday's event. Hemmed the ruffles by hand-stitching, and ruffled them by hand too. Me needs a sewing machine T_T

The back. The corset finishing is fully functional. Notice how the original one was so...bland?

And later I realized that this dress has slight resemblances to a Bodyline dress which I have just discovered today

Though this dress brought forth a sex maniac (please read previous post), I'm still happy with it. At last! My hand-stitching hard work has paid off :D Mum said it's beautiful, and better than my white one. What do you think?

kalau boleh jangan jalan sorang2, lelaki gile seks berada di mane2

I went to PC Fair today at Persada. Supposed to go with my bro, but since he's going with his friends by car, I had to go alone. There's no way I'm going to get in the same car with a bunch of fifteen-year-old boys. Actually, it should sound like this: there's no way I'm going to get in the same car with some strangers, be it male or female. I have mild xenophobia. Sorry. Anyhoo, I went there, giving my best fake smile of declination to the ravaging broadband promoters, circled the exhibition hall four or five times, visiting every booths more than twice in an attempt to 'compare the prices of things' (you know that's my hobby despite me being a compulsive buyer), and ended up buying a RM28 cooling pad, CD-RWs and a peculiar note book thing which looked (and smelled!) like chocolate. Total: RM40. Didn't buy RAM for Kiki, coz I forgot to check her specs. Kang men beli jek kang koma Kiki aku. Oh tidak.

Then as usual I went to City Square, having lack of better things to do. Went to MPH and bought myself some Brothers Grimm Fairy Tales Collection (inspired by last week's Supernatural. I need some gory, sexual, grotesquely freaky fairy tales among my collection of vampire romance). Saw a nice hardcover Alice that came with a cute White Rabbit necklace, but I already have my hardcover Alice. I need Through The Looking-Glass (MY BIRTHDAY WISH! INGAT TU!). Had my lunch at Summer (they serve the best rice burgers ever!) and played DDP. I dunno, when in [improper, ita-ish] lolita I felt compelled to play DDP. Of course I brought attention, but that's part of life wearing lacey, frilly, massively bell-shaped dresses. Whatever.

But that's not the worst part beb. It happened right after I went out from Innercity. As I was walking this particular jantan in yellow t-shirt walked VERY NEAR me, pretending to warn me about some wet floor ahead. I ignored him, and just walked away. After a few steps I noticed that he was following me, so I stopped and changed my direction. I thought that I was safe, but no.

(the following will be written in BM coz I express myself i.e. curse better in my mother tongue)

Aku perasan yang die dok ikot jek aku eventhough aku dah tukar direction, so aku jalan la cepat-cepat pegi escalator, n aku sengaje selit2 tengah2 org ramai. And hey whaddayaknow, die pon kejar aku n selambe jek berdiri kat sebelah aku kat escalator tu. RAPAT NAK MAMPUS. Aku ingat die berani wat setakat tu jek, so aku still ignore die. Muke pon aku x pandang. Betape terkezutnye aku bile die kuarkan henpon die pastu men hulur2 kat aku. Baru aku perasan yang die narnye try nak amek gambo aku ngan die. WHAT THE FUCK??!!!! Dahla dekat nak mampus!! Sial! Aku punye darah memang dah menyirap tahap gaban n without further thinking aku shove die sekuat ati n jerit "FUCK!!!". Aku ingat die nak lari ke hape, tp he still had the nerve to say "Janganla marah dik". MOTHERFUCKER BTOL LAH!!! Ade 2 orang akak kat depan aku, n bile diorang dengar aku jerit tu diorang pandang belakang n pastu geleng2 kepale. AKU PULAK YANG KENE! Gaknye diorang pikir aku ngah gadoh ngan bf . WTF GILE. Turun jek dr escalator aku trus lari gi tempat orang yg ramai gile n disappear from his sight. Aku lari sampai kuar dr City Square. Gi bas pun aku lari. Bangsat punye jantan.

I do regret not doing anything worse than shouting fuck, though. Like, I can take his phone and smash it to the ground floor (I was at the fourth floor) or even push him down the fourth floor, but for some reasons I DIDN'T DO IT. And somehow I forgot to bring my knife; if I do bring it I could straight away slash his face, or stab him on his stomach, or slit his wrist. Why the fuck did I not do it. Fucker. AAAARGHHHHH!!!!!!!!

Next time I'm walking alone, I won't forget to bring my knife. I need to buy a new one, a bigger one maybe, like the one I once used to cut myself like ikan kembung. That one was massive, and could scare away any possible harassing sex maniacs. Yeah. My God, I desperately need an ouji to protect me. I'm sick of being harassed by those bastards.

Oh, for the record, I wore all-black today. Nothing sexual about me really - no big boobs or butts, the only skin I showed was on my face (I didn't even show the skin on my hands coz I was wearing gloves). I dunno if those bastards considered my petticoats underneath my OP as my butts. Shit.

sewing project lalalalala~~~

I bought this strawberry print out of compulsive buying habit. It's RM3 per metre, so I couldn't resist.

then I decided that 2 metres are not enough, and I need something for ruffles, so I got myself some remnants

I initially wanted to make a basic rectangle skirt using that strawberry print, but decided that it will look quite ridiculous due to the nature of the print. I'm at risk of being an overgrown Strawberry Shortcake.

So I planned to make something more, ugh, Angelic Pretty XD

Judging from the fact that I don't have a sewing machine and I don't know how to draft patterns (nor I have any of them), don't you think this JSK design is a bit too...ambitious?

part time job

JAWATAN: PEMBANTU DAPUR

GAJI: RM15 SEHARI

WAKTU KERJA: 6.30 am - 9.30 am + 10.00 pm - 1.00 am

Deskripsi Tugasan:

• Menggoreng karipap kentang, karipap sardin, donat dan pau sambal
• Memasukkan sambal ke dalam pau sambal
• Menggulakan donat (letak gula kat donat...adish...)
• Memasukkan kuih ke dalam bekas
• Melayan jiran-jiran yang datang untuk membeli kuih di rumah
• Menolong membuat karipap kentang
• Menghantar kuih-kuih menggunakan basikal (tugasan sampingan)
• Mengemas tempat kerja setelah selesai tugasan
• Mengupas dan memotong kentang sebanyak 4kg
• Membuang tahi dan tulang ikan bilis
• Melipat kertas pembungkus nasi lemak

Kriteria yang Diperlukan:

• Mampu bangun awal dan memulakan kerja pada pukul 6.30 pagi
• Mempunyai skil menggoreng kuih dan skil mengagak bila masa sesuai untuk mengangkat kuih dari kuali gorengan
• Sanggup berdiri di hadapan kuali yang panas selama 1-2 jam tanpa duduk
• Mempunyai skil multitasking, contohnya goreng karipap sambil goreng ayam
• Tahu cara-cara membuat karipap
• Sanggup menerima tugasan di luar bidang kerja, seperti menggantikan penjual kuih di gerai kuih
• Mempunyai personaliti menarik, dan mempunyai social skills yang baik untuk berurusan dengan jiran-jiran
• Tidak takut kepada minyak panas. Mampu berlagak selamba apabila terkena minyak panas
• Mampu melakukan kira-kira dengan pantas, tepat dan efisien
• Berupaya membawa 5-6 bekas kuih menggunakan basikal dalam satu-satu masa
• Mempunyai skil mengupas dan memotong kentang
• Tidak geli memegang kentang yang sudah rosak/busuk
• Mampu mengopek ikan bilis dalam tempoh kurang 1 jam
• Sanggup bekerja lebih masa, melangkaui waktu tidur
• Mampu menerima semua tugasan dengan hati yang terbuka
• Bersikap optimistik dan sedia menerima semua tugasan bila-bila masa

Faedah yang Disediakan

• Gaji yang tetap setiap hari
• Boleh makan kuih-kuih yang tersedia
• Makanan dan tempat tinggal disediakan
• Sarapan nasi lemak ayam
• Boleh sambung tidur lepas goreng kuih
• Cuti setiap hari Ahad
• Boleh jalan-jalan kalau cuti
• Disayangi dan dikasihi setiap hari
• Kebarangkalian untuk dimarahi adalah sedikit

this is why I love working with my mum...

this is why i wanna be a pharmacist

i could die without this.

When I was 6 or something I wanted to become a doctor. Like most kids. I thought that to satiate my hunger for knowledge related to diseases, I must become a doctor. It went on until I reached 11, before I discovered that you don't have to be a doctor to study about diseases, there are many other fields of science related to diseases, their effects and how to cure them. Microbiology, for example. Or epidemiology. Or virology. Or pathology.

Then, as I venture deeper into the vast world of science (I was curious, please forgive me), I found out that I became increasingly attracted to chemistry. So I abandoned my love for diseases (that sounds a bit weird O.o) and started reading college level chemistry stuffs during Form 2. During that period of infatuation with chemistry, I got to know toxicology, and realized that it was my true love. But I couldn't leave chemistry since it has now became a part of me. At the same time, my interest towards diseases began to resurface. And I was left torn between toxicology, chemistry and virology/epidemiology/microbiology/pathology.

That's how I fell in love with pharmacy.

(Pharmacy is the study of drugs, and it also covers about how drugs can cure diseases, hence the viromicropathoepidemiology. Obviously drugs are chemicals, hence the chemistry. Some drugs are poisons, hence the toxicology.)

Actually, that's not the only reason why I decided to venture into pharmacy. FYI, I am a hypochondriac, and I love to make self-diagnosis. My body is also host to so many diseases, the worst one being my dreaded rhinitis allergy. The allergy, which was made worse by a stupid bogus doctor despite his title as 'Doktor Pakar' (desensitization treatment gone wrong), has forced me to rely on this antihistamine named cetirizine hydrochloride for 6 years already. If I don't take it I'll be in histamine hell. Actually, despite taking it regularly, I still got my regular rhinitis attack in the form of severe flu-like syndrome once or twice a month. Due to having to take medicine regularly, I also developed an unhealthy habit of taking painkillers for every single known disease I have, be it dysmenorrhea, that rhinitis attack, fever, GI disturbances, migraine, or even depression (hahaha koi la).

And I think, I just think, that by taking cetirizine as my staple food, I have left my body in a very poor condition. Gastrointestinal disturbances are regular, as well as fatigue and drowsiness. My brittle and dull hair may be a side effect of cetirizine too. But then again, I'm a hypochondriac. Those could merely be my paranoia. I dunno.

That's why I wanna be a pharmacist. To find a better cure for my rhinitis, one without horrendous side effects. And maybe, find cure for cancer in the process :P

i love Melty Chocolate <3

sempena Loliday...

lelaki ade yg xgune... ade, not all

Klaha yang suke kucing ialah satu contoh lelaki gentleman yang tidak tergolong dalam golongan tak gune tu

sorang adik form 1 0913 (yg aku xkenal pon) tanye aku "Akak rase umur brape sesuai kapel?"

aku cakap kat die "High school ni xyahla kapel2 dik oi... guys are not serious in their relationship during high school...diorang bese nak main2 jek, or nak merasa, or nak ade 'title', or hormonal drive. "

dan die pun reply, "Ooooo..."

budak2 zaman sekarang. Sekolah rendah pun dah kapel (aku la tuhhh :P)

Dulu aku fikir kapel tu mesti best. Ape yang best aku tak tau. Mebe rase disayangi kot.

Tapi lepas kapel ngan 3 orang losers, I quit.

And I made a conclusion that teenage years are not the time to be in a relationship.

Aku malas nak bitching2 sal my previous bfs, sbab one of them dh kne belasah habis kat dalam blog aku ni (kat sini). But yeah, somehow I always end up with the wrong persons. Yang not straight la, yang overly obsessed la, yang playboy la, yang curik motor la. Desperate la katekan. Guys yang aku suke xpernah la return my love. Aku tunjuk cmane pon still xpaham2. Kadang2 rase diri ni sangatlah gedik n hegeh. Pastu ade yg macam ade tanda2, tp last2 aku yg perasan lebey.

Then we have random male strangers. Orang yang aku tak kenal pon tp suke make my life miserable. Contohnye mamat2 loser yang ntah dari mane tetibe suit2 aku ('suit' itu ialah slang bagi catcall) bile nampak aku jalan sorang2. Or makhluk2 yang bawak lori/bas/kereta/traktor yang tetibe hon cipan punye kuat diikuti dgn the said suit2 mase aku nak lintas jalan. Or setan2 yang cube pecah rumah aku tyme aku darjah 6 sbb nak 'baham' aku tape terpakse berputih mata sbb tyme tu aku xde kat rumah. Dasar __________ btol ah (insert expletives here).

And that actually made me become slightly androphobic. All male strangers are capable of inflicting harm towards me - Subconscious told me that. Sebab tu la kalo aku kuar sorang2 aku memang tak tinggal ah gunting/pisau/jarum/paku/racun/pepper spray kat dalam beg aku. Or make myself look terrifying, like a vampire ke. Pakai sumer hitam. Pakai eyeliner tebal2. Up to the point of wearing black lipstick. And sengaje wat pisau/gunting/etc aku visible. Ape2 saje asalkan I'm not being bothered. Kadang2 that androphobia terbawak2 dlm social life. "Oh, mamat ni saje nak test aku ni gedik/murah/cikaro ke tak. Baik jangan layan." Macam tu lah.

Sometimes I hope I live in an era where guys have immense chivalry/gallantry. Sangat malang la aku sbb dalam abad ke-21 ni, chivalry is dead. Susah nak carik guy yang btol2 gentleman, kalo ade pon gentle man ade la. Nak carik yang aristocrat type macam, er, Klaha-sama (aku dh hilang idea nk bg contoh sape. PEOPLE PLS DUN SUGGEST EDWARD CULLEN!!!) sungguh datukla susah. Kadang2 aku risau cmane nnti bile aku kahwin. Laki aku nanti mcm yg aku nak ke tak. Dapat yang hormat pompuan ke, or yang jenis juara sepak terajang anak bini (flaming over drama malam Ahad hari tu)? Kang tak kahwin kang aku ni.

Sebab tu la kot, for the time being, I'll just stick to my Raphael. Walaupun die mmg xwujud (boleh jdk wujud...aku jek lom jumpe die), at least he's better than many guys out there. Ntahla. Tengoklah nanti yek aku kahwin ngan sape. Tp skarang ni aku memang xde niat nak kapel, sebab buang mase. Buang kredit, buang air mata. I'm not a lovey-dovey type. Selagi ko belum jadik laki aku, ko still stranger dlm idop aku. Xde keje aku nak komited kat ko ke, pujuk2 ko ke, call2 ko slalu ke, tanye ko dh makan ke blom ke <---- sbb tu org takut nk jdk bf aku kot

Wait. Somebody pls tell me nape aku tulis ni at da first place?